I love my mommy so much
Do you know how bad it feels to have to purge all the tears out of yourself just because you know you are inadequate. Even when I genuinely want to enjoy something I’m doing at the moment, work is always lurking at the back of my mind and I know it sounds silly that I get frequent and uncalled for breakdowns because of it but the society I live in, to me, seems to be built on academic excellence which is unattainable to me. And while I don’t want to conform to these expectations, I cannot help but set even higher expectations for myself when I know that I cannot be anything more than mediocre (even mediocrity is something I have to put such a big margin of effort into). People tell me to stop saying that I cannot do what I set out to achieve but there is always a limit to a person’s intelligence.